Day 7 of singledom

Well, at the very least sleeping alone is getting easier. Only 1 4am wake last night to find myself alone in bed but definitely progress.

Strange how when you are single all the exes from the past come out from under their rocks. Under the guise of, I am your friend, you need to talk let me know. I know the gesture is nice but seeing someone else who it didn't work out with is not really helping, all the wondering about if it was you who made the same mistakes with him and you did this last one. Strange, I think the person who has the least to do with the breakup harbors the most guilt.

On a high note though talking to someone close who knew the "couple" before, during and after the breakup was nice. Hearing that maybe it's not all my fault and sometimes people get confused and are too young to be all in a relationship is a load off my shoulders. Just a little F.Y.I, I am a cougar :) but in my defense he wasn't some poor little boy I seduced, 6 years isn't that huge of a difference when you have alot in common. We were friends for 2yrs before dating and I think I miss that friendship the most. He's just a very proud old soul who said he wanted more than I guess he really did. We are not mind readers men, you have to communicate and initiate conversations with us if you want something.

Lots to do today and have to get myself mentally ready for what was supposed to be girl's night out tomorrow but is now turning into a free for all. Boy, being single is scary but I know I can handle it.