I have 2 jobs. My 2nd job I deal with animals. I love them, they are therapeutic and you can't be sad around an tail wagging ready to be loved animal. Generally I can walk into my job and instantly forget about everything, it's usually busy and loud and plenty of people to talk to and belly's to scratch.
For some reason though yesterday was not helping. The people were annoying and the dogs, well they were still cute but the owners were on my last nerve. Maybe by talking to The Ex I am prolonging the inevitable, Moving On. I didn't speak to him yesterday and I am forcing myself not to respond to his lame "How are you?" tex. What is the purpose of stringing someone along if you don't love them. I don't think he is a bad person but I also know he is a confused young guy. Trying to be open minded but yesterday I was just more pissed than anything. Emotions suck.
I decided that I am going out of town for Valentines Day. It's coming quick and I want to be with friends I know and have loved for years, not some stranger who asks me on a date because he is lonely like me. I put alot of thought and heart into holidays, even hallmark ones and knowing there is a card waiting to be written on that I bought ahead of time for The Ex makes me sad. I won't reuse it but not ready to throw it away yet. Silly right that something that impersonal that hundreds of people bought the same card could feel so personal.
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