Day 24 of Singledom

First off I would like to say that whoever invented wine is a GOD. Seriously. Had a long day at work and opted to hang out with a girlfriend instead of heading to a party at a bar. I have a feeling it would have ended up being amateur hour and I am too old for that and have no desire to hold anyone's hair back in a public toilet. When we party we party hard. I think cops, medics and firemen all share the responsibility of making sure the liquor business booms forever.

I go to my girlfriends house and she has homemade wine which was phenomenal. You know, the kind that is mellow and not to strong and before you know it you have drunk 3 bottles and are venting about everything that is wrong or not up to par in your life? That was our evening. We tried watching a movie but couldn't stop talking. I miss that, I have a best friend who I can do that with but not many times in your life will you just click with someone that you feel you can tell them anything and not be judged. I would like to think that I am that type of person in return but I think sometimes we get caught up in our own shit that we feel entitled to judge people we don't know when we are no better than the other person. Just different.

I did finally speak to The Engineer and agreed to go on another date, why not? No harm. I made it clear what I can offer at this time and it's not my heart so if the scraps aren't good enough then there are plenty other men out there. Maybe I don't even want a man though, don't get crazy thinking I want a woman because that is not even on the table but I think maybe I just want to breathe. Yes, that is my word for this whole year, Breathe.