Day 58 of Singledom

Bye Bye Liver. Clever and witty and right on point. I went to a comedy show after work last night with The Ex. It was great, an interactive drinking show that was way better than I was expecting. I love being surprised. The cast was on point with all their characters, my personal favorite being the guy who's girlfriend should not, under no circumstances drink tequila. That would be me. I steer clear, so clear that I don't even wanna smell the stuff, no only does it make me want to puke but I think if I actually drank it I would sprout horns and maybe a third breast... on my ass. Creepy right? Just not a good thing. Trust me. I'm not a lawyer so I am always telling you the truth.

Had a drink after the show and couldn't help noticing all the cute guys at the bar, again thinking that maybe I should not be spending so much time with The Ex. Not really keeping my options open if I am with him a majority of the time I go out because even though we aren't together I would not pick up another guy. That's too low for me... unless I had tequila.

Got me thinking though that maybe the whole spending time out should taper off a bit. I brought this up and it started a huge thing of how I can do whatever I feel is best for me but silly to not see him if we are trying to still remain friends and he understands if this is about another guy. Told him it's not... it's about all the guys that could be and the possibility that I could develop feelings for him again and don't want to. The main thing is that I don't want to get hurt again and he is still the same confused little boy he was 58 days ago. We want different things and we need different people to achieve those goals. It was overall depressing and sad conversation but I am glad we talked about it. We keep having these "We're not getting back together" and "Enjoying your company that's it" conversations but this was a little different. This one made me want to go have that shot of tequila. And damn the consequences.