Day 76-79 of Singledom

St Paddy's Day week is always a blur, you rush through work to get to the festivities. We planned an all day drinking fest on Wednesday. There was about 6 of us and the Beer Pong Guy showed up after a couple work meetings. Not sure why but suddenly I do not like him anymore. He's cute and funny but I just don't, maybe it was his suit or the way he drank his whiskey but I just wasn't feeling it. Oh well. The day started at 10am and by 3pm people were dropping like flies, by 6pm it was only me and one other guy. By 1am I was cabbing it home thinking this has to be the longest day ever. I am pretty sure I drank myself sober. Knowing I had an errand to run in the morning was daunting but extremely happy when I turned out not be hungover just really tired. Yesterday I talked to The Ex for a lil bit and he wanted to know if I was ready to be friends yet. Not even a week later. I don't think I can still feel hurt and confused and need a break to get away from the situation of our non-coupleness. It's hard because I know we both find ourselves texting or calling a couple times a day to share something stupid. Hoping that by keeping busy I won't want to but seems to make me want to even more cause then I have alot more to share. Never ending cycles are so hard to break.